Day log: 28/01
Jan. 28th, 2026 10:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
valzhang...Jesus.
I don't usually do a day log this early but... I hardly see anything particularly noteworthy happening in the second half of this day that's any more surprising than what happened this morning. Not gonna talk about details because even though I know nobody reads these, it still remains that people can, and, well, this isn't something I want to risk other people seeing.
Will I have to get another personal journal to write about it in? I suppose this is the downside of having an online blog; theoretically anyone can read it. Be that as it may, I'll get to the point: I received some pretty tough news this morning. Some of it pertains to money, and my studies abroad.
It really sucks. Especially since I know that no matter what I do, the ultimatum will be out of my hands (even if I can put in effort to help). I also have my International Law exam tomorrow—but how the hell am I supposed to study now?
Also, I hear the exam is sloppily made, so a part of me is wondering whether I should try at all? I mean obviously I will in the end but it's difficult to concentrate when I just keep thinking and thinking about a million other things. I hate this. I seriously hate this. I can't even read my textbook. I want someone to be angry at but there's no one.
Maybe I will write my review on American Psycho tonight (overdue), mood depending, but I don't see that being likely. God. I hate being anxious. I'm a pretty confident person most times, you know? So I really hate being in my head about things.
I'm gonna take a break and eat a bit. Then I'll come back and try to study some more. Seriously. And maybe do some laundry. Doing laundry after knowing all of this seems ridiculous but life goes on right?
I just hate this. I want my exam to be over so I can read and draw and write. Fuckkk.
I don't usually do a day log this early but... I hardly see anything particularly noteworthy happening in the second half of this day that's any more surprising than what happened this morning. Not gonna talk about details because even though I know nobody reads these, it still remains that people can, and, well, this isn't something I want to risk other people seeing.
Will I have to get another personal journal to write about it in? I suppose this is the downside of having an online blog; theoretically anyone can read it. Be that as it may, I'll get to the point: I received some pretty tough news this morning. Some of it pertains to money, and my studies abroad.
It really sucks. Especially since I know that no matter what I do, the ultimatum will be out of my hands (even if I can put in effort to help). I also have my International Law exam tomorrow—but how the hell am I supposed to study now?
Also, I hear the exam is sloppily made, so a part of me is wondering whether I should try at all? I mean obviously I will in the end but it's difficult to concentrate when I just keep thinking and thinking about a million other things. I hate this. I seriously hate this. I can't even read my textbook. I want someone to be angry at but there's no one.
Maybe I will write my review on American Psycho tonight (overdue), mood depending, but I don't see that being likely. God. I hate being anxious. I'm a pretty confident person most times, you know? So I really hate being in my head about things.
I'm gonna take a break and eat a bit. Then I'll come back and try to study some more. Seriously. And maybe do some laundry. Doing laundry after knowing all of this seems ridiculous but life goes on right?
I just hate this. I want my exam to be over so I can read and draw and write. Fuckkk.
