Day log: 26/12
Dec. 26th, 2025 12:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
valzhangI gave up on being religious or even a true believer a long time ago, but it's impossible to resist the Christmas spirit. That's why everyone celebrates it, Catholic or not. It's kind of beautiful in a way.
It was nice to log on and see everyone saying it: Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, the one thing we all have in common regardless of where you are. And of course I am familiar with the concept of holidays, haha, but none feel as large and all-encompassing as Christmas. I feel all weird and sentimental tonight. I'm pretty sure anything could bring me to tears right now.
Partly I suppose it's because it's my first Christmas alone. I'm away from my family, the farthest I've ever been. And like I said, my roommate is in Austria, I don't really have any close friends here, I'm alone. But I'm not lonely.
I miss my family and my friends but I'm okay.
Even though I told myself I wasn't going to, my parents told me it was fine, so I decided to splurge a bit. I bought myself a whole Oreo cake from the grocery store and ate Indomie. It was so good; I'm stuffed. I did continue through Letters to Milena but it was getting so unfalteringly romantic that it's only making me more emotionally fragile. Maybe I'll finish it tonight, or maybe tomorrow.
Anyway, I know nobody reads these logs, that they're really only for me, but Merry Christmas! I have a whole year ahead of me and no doubt there will be pain and difficulty— But I was happy today.
It was nice to log on and see everyone saying it: Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, the one thing we all have in common regardless of where you are. And of course I am familiar with the concept of holidays, haha, but none feel as large and all-encompassing as Christmas. I feel all weird and sentimental tonight. I'm pretty sure anything could bring me to tears right now.
Partly I suppose it's because it's my first Christmas alone. I'm away from my family, the farthest I've ever been. And like I said, my roommate is in Austria, I don't really have any close friends here, I'm alone. But I'm not lonely.
I miss my family and my friends but I'm okay.
Even though I told myself I wasn't going to, my parents told me it was fine, so I decided to splurge a bit. I bought myself a whole Oreo cake from the grocery store and ate Indomie. It was so good; I'm stuffed. I did continue through Letters to Milena but it was getting so unfalteringly romantic that it's only making me more emotionally fragile. Maybe I'll finish it tonight, or maybe tomorrow.
Anyway, I know nobody reads these logs, that they're really only for me, but Merry Christmas! I have a whole year ahead of me and no doubt there will be pain and difficulty— But I was happy today.
